Fairytales do come true...they can happen to you....

So...I'm a newlywed...kinda. I've been married almost a year so I guess that qualifies me as a newlywed. I've known my husband since I was 13 years old. I am now 26. God Bless him for falling in love with me after seeing me at 13! LOL. That's probably the best thing about our relationship. We've known each other through the awkward, don't know how to dress, zit face, disproportional head, squeaky voice, crazy hair stages. Seeing me as an adult must have really blown his mind. I comb my hair now and I don't wear overall's everyday! Yay!

He was always the "cute" guy. All the girls loved him. Including me. But he is a very handsome man now. I don't feel worthy of such a catch. Not only is he handsome but he makes me laugh, he's brings me flowers for no reason, and he helps me paint my toenails. (No I'm not being sarcastic...and no I'm not making this up) He is my best friend and will soon be the father our little boy. He is a wonderful husband. He truly knows how to take care of me. He is so loving and considerate and romantic. I didn't know men like him still existed in this world. That is why I packed up and moved back for him. There was no way I was going to let someone else swoop him up. I don't know if you'd call it fate or 2nd chances or just sheer luck but something brought us together and whatever that is...I'm thankful for it. We are perfect for each other. Might sound cheesy but it's true. I've never had another person understand me the way that he does. I feel like I can just be myself.  Although it has taken me awhile to embrace who "myself" truly was.

People that knew me before may think that i'm different now that I'm married and have a family or just different from before I (re) met my husband but that person was never me. I was trying to figure myself out and I guess there have been a few different versions of myself. But the person I am today; That's really me. No fronts. My husband knew me when I was weird and awkward. When I wasn't afraid to be silly. When I wasn't too cool. When I was free. He knew the real me. That's why it made it so easy for us to fall in love with each other. We didn't need to impress each other. We already loved each other for who we were/are. He helped me get back to that girl...just in woman form, Who knew Mr. Right was standing in front of me all those years ago! I'm glad we got together when we did though. I wasn't ready for him at 13. Hell, I wasn't ready for him at 21. Things all fell into place when they were supposed to. I can't believe how lucky I am. I'm so glad that I didn't settle for less. Everything I hoped for is actually coming true. My own real life fairy-tale. Somebody pinch me!


"Why is it that you think people get married?

Because we need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet, I mean what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything...the good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things...all of it, all the time, every day. You're saying... your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. your life will not go unwitnessed, because I will be your witness." -Susan Sarandon -Shall We Dance

The whole spiel

Who Am I?

Stina! (not Tina bcuz that is too common and not Christina because that is too formal.!) I'm just a simple girl woman lookin for some passion n some piece of mind. U can always catch me singin or dancin n not takin my life too seriously. If I've learned NEthing it's that life is short and u gotta dance in the the rain and laugh thru the pain. I'm consistently indecisive. I have no idea where I'm going and exactly how i'm gonna get there. I wish I did. I pretend I do. I kind of want to do everything at once and do nothing at all. I believe in working hard, but sometimes lack the drive to do so because i get bored. I put up a good front of confidence but am really insecure just like everybody else. I'm better with words on paper. I constantly fumble over my words because I overthink everything... but not long enough. There is a constant dichotomy of what I think I want. I don't think i'll ever really know. I escaped from Utah and fled to Arizona about 3 yrs ago and came back in 2009. . Don't know how long I'll stay in Utah...but I'm here because I fell in love with the the most amazing man...So it's been worth it! I don’t t fear change. I embrace it. I wish I were more spontaneous. I would love to just pack up and leave my life behind. Start over every few years. But I got Bills! I will go back to school. Emphasis on WILL. I just dunno when. I really just wanna live and have fun while I still can. I wanna have my fingers in as many cookie jars as I can. It’s taken me a long time to grow and be comfortable in my own skin. I am not afraid to be myself. As dorky or goofy as that may be. Don't categorize me into any cultural cliche's. I am who I am, and I don't apologize for it.. I'm a lil weird I guess. But I can live with that. I'm a realist to an extent. I'm not shy, but like a good potato, it takes me a lil while to warm up.(Damn I love potatoes!) I'm a bit unorganized but there is a method to my madness. I'd say my two biggest flaws (aside from anything physical) are that I'm too trusting and I take my sweet ass time. I have a freakishly good memory and can hang onto a moment forever. Simple things resonate with me. Laughter is my only prescription. I think everyone should laugh loud and laugh hard. Especially at themselves. I can be somewhat sarcastic, neurotic and overzealous. Don't think for a minute that u've got me figured out, becuz u will be delightfully surprised to find that u don't. My interests are vast and I find happiness in the smallest and simplest of things.

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